Sunday, February 1, 2009

Call Me A Hopeless Romantic Or Call Me A Sinner.

So I read @acidrefluxweb's blog earlier on what valentines day means to him, etc. (http://acidrefluxweb.com)

Made me want to figure why I love/hate the holiday of love.

Well, I think its safe to say, the reason why most people hate it, is because at the time that holiday rolls its face around, the person is either single and looking, or single and no one enjoys you.

I think for this Valentine's day, I'm just gonna grab a bottle of booze and a box of chocolates and masterbate.

The reason I love to hate valentines day, is because I enjoy the fact that there is an ENTIRE day dedicated to the aspect of loving someone, but also at the same time, I hate the fact that everyone over does it. Like BIG time.

Flyers, banisters, red stuff, candy, flowers, etc.
Understandable its good for the economy, but seriously? Why would someone who is gonna be alone on that day, want to see any of that? Who knows! Maybe someday that movie My Bloody Valentine will come true, MAYBE, just maybe, I can pull it off.

Seems jaded and bitter of me to say I'd do something like that, but seriously, I'm so glad I don't celebrate holidays. The only one(s) I will celebrate are:
-My Birthday (its just natural to. I mean its another year that your still alive, and the earth is still spinning, right?)

-St. Patricks Day: who the fuck else isn't going to celebrate this holiday?? A day DEDICATED to drinking and being drunk, I may be wrong on that statement, but that is what we American's have made it out to be.

To continue back on track, I hate valentines day also, because i've only experienced a valentines day with another person, ONCE.
The more amusing part about it, is there was no romantic dinner, no movie, just chocolate, a Teddy bear, a cute card, and sex.

Of course it was all nice, but I want to experience something that makes me feel like I'm being appreciated for being with someone...alas, that's probably why I'm single. Cause everyone is just to I don't know...

I also hate the marketing. It's annoying to see and have to watch everyone else SMOTHER each other with cheesey gifts and chocolate, etc.

To really define what I would do, I would personally just make it a regular day as every day is already! If, IF I was dating someone, I wouldn't smother them with gifts. I'd rather start the day off with breakfast in bed, maybe a nice passionate shower, then work if we have to work, and go to a movie and eat some popcorn etc.
Then afterwards, we'd go home and I'd make a candle lit dinner.

No smothering involved, its all romantic and passionate, the exact opposite of what most people do.


The reason I like the holiday, is just cause you can express yourself as a person about your love for someone...(don't even get me started)...and also, you can show love, of course we show it off everyday, but to be able to know that a day Marked specifically for love, is one that makes it more special.

That I think is why people smother each other and overdue the holiday. It's sickening at times when people do things in front of me on purpose, but that's only on purpose.

Its kind of irrelevant, to write this, because it makes me seem like I'm obviously being a cynical hopeless romantic, but hey!

I can be a person and express myself and my lack there of called a love life.

I also think I'm writing this, because of having to see the sickening sight of my past chapter. I've moved on from it, and still haven't answered him back, which I don't even know if I can muster the courage or honesty without being overly hostile and bitching.

But whatever, I know that he probably reads my posts when I link them on Twitter (@Dr_Jared) or on Myspace (http://www.Myspace.com/jaredjose) but what the hell ever! I,m just done having to read on his facebook and Myspace about that shit. Please don't make it that public. I already unfollowed your ass on twitter, cause I was sick of seeing that shit.

Ugh....I'm begining to rant. I'm done....no mas! No mas senor!

I'm off, gonna find me a god damn cigarette and maybe get some mcdonalds or taco bell....I need to get home and get ready for work soon, and I want some coffee.....I still look like shit...I feel soo sore and hungover still.

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